things you may not know about me...

i care about EVERYONE. doesn't matter how many times you have wronged me...i don't think i am able to hate people

i wish people would actually get to know me before they make a final decision about me

i am a visual person. if i give you something it is not to "show off" but it is how i show people that i care about them.

it is hard for me to be emotionally open with people.

my biggest fear in life is abandonment.

while my room may be a disaster i am super OCD about every other part of the house being clean

i want nothing more than to be a mom

temple marriage is more important to me than you will ever know.

i grew up surrounded by politics, i basically was raised in the capital building


i have 3 children


i got my drivers permit at 14 but started driving at 7


i have no personal boundaries


i worked at a florist


i am Mormon


i love ashli cooney


i dated a man name chuckinupameatball who was also 5 years younger than i thought he was


i have 2 adorable cats


i drive NON STOP! i am like a chauffeur


i was an only child for 8 years


i have partied with the NY JETS


i spent New Years Eve in Times Square


my friends and i are super indecisive


i am a workaholic


i love giving presents to see peoples faces

i have had an epidural (and survived!)

I AM 21! WAHOO

I am officially old.

and yes... I am spending my first day of being 21 blogging.

So what am I going to do this year? I know you all wanted to know...

                   I am just doing to be me... I am so sick of trying to change myself to make other people. Its not what I want to be doing. I want to be completely happy with who I am and what I am doing. When it comes down to it I am not living my life to please my roommates/friends/classmates, etc. I am living it for me and as long as I know that I am living the way that I know my Heavenly Father approves I am in.

                    I am going to work on my spirituality. I am not saying that I am not spiritual, but lets face it. Sometimes life gets crazy and you start losing the things that are the most important to you. My faith and my beliefs are what makes me who I am. I love my Heavenly Father an my older brother Jesus Christ. My beliefs have not wavered but I feel that this is as good of a time as any to strengthen my relationship with my Savior.

                   I want to work on my physical appearance. I want to be happier and healthier. Like I said earlier I am focusing on me. I have learned especially over the last year, that I don't really care what people think/say about me. I am just doing me. I just want to live a healthier and more productive lifestyle. That is it. End of story.

                   I am going  to start planning for the future. I am NOT saying I am  in a rush to get married and have kids! I have just been thinking a lot lately about my future and where I want to be in 5, 10, even 15 years. I just want to be emotionally, physically and spiritually prepared for whatever may happen in my life. So long story short, I don't want to have any "repairs" or changes I need to make before I can do something.

                   I am going to focus more on school and work. I am the happiest when I am working and to be able to get my life where I can just work full time and that means I need to get through school with good grades. It is time to get down to business!

                   It is time to volunteer more! I am so happy when I am focusing on other people! There is nothing that makes me happier then when I am with other people. Yes, I am a very social person but there is just something amazing about being able to make other people happy.

                   I am going to form better friendships. Yes I do have some amazing friends but sometimes I just feel so used. I just feel like people do not actually take time to know the real me, it is all about the first impression. I mean there is SO much more to me than what meets the eye. Its time that I get rid of the superficial, fake people that I feel like are not my true friends. I am done, it is a new year of my life and I am making crazy changes. It is all about me being happy. I have spent too much time trying to please other people.


I am pumped to start this new phase of my life. I am ready to be exactly where I want to be in my life! Hello happier Lauren!