I AM OFFICIALLY A BLOGGING FAILURE!

I am absolutely horrid at the game of blogging. I feel awful... not that anyone really reads this but it has kinda become my little secret way of expressing myself. Well on that note here I go on one of my mindless rampages again.

So, as I started off my Junior Year in college I decided that there were to be no relationships... no dumb guy drama. I had enough stupid guys in my life this summer. This was a year to have a clean drama free life only consumed by school, work, and friends. Well this plan might fail. I have started having feelings for someone. ughhhh... why now?! So now you ask...being a very mature adult how exactly does Lauren deal with this? The answer... keep myself super busy with school, work, roommates, gym and sleep. My excuse... I cant go out this week because I am drowning in homework and whoops I am going out of town this weekend.

I know this is awful and super immature, but honestly this just isn't the right time and he is a sweet guy but for some reason I don't trust him. ughhh. I hate this.

I hate being vulnerable. It scares the crap out of me! like seriously! I swear im going to die every time I let someone completely in and if I cant trust someone there is no way possible that I can let them in. Why can't I just find the perfect person and quit the terrible game of dating?!?!

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone
-Anonymous

mid week trip to Idaho Falls

So here I sit on my friend Kelsey's couch listening to her little girl Emma making noises in the background. Life is exciting in Idaho Falls this lovely supposedly spring day. It was an exciting day with little Emma, she goes from loving me to hating me in just seconds and that makes for some interesting times. A few minutes ago she was mad at me for tickling her and she decided she was going to hit me but just moments after that she was literally shoving cookies in my face because she wanted to share. Having a child try give you food is always interesting but with Emma she finds it completely necessary to shove the food as well as her whole hand into your mouth. This experience is actually somewhat painful. She has this little game that we have been playing on an off for the last hour where I put her socks on, she decides she wants them off, and then freaks out if I do not immediately put them back on her. It was entertaining the first 20 times but now I am exhausted and really don't feel like putting the socks on anymore. I am not sure what she thinks of me staying here for a few nights because she tends to follow me into places like the bathroom to watch me brush my teeth or into the kitchen and intensely watches me get a drink of water. She came into see who was in the bed this morning and she found me instead of her dad and I am sure she was throughly confused, but hey daddy was out of town so her mommy and I decided to have some girl time.

Today we went to the splendorous Grand Teton Mall and went shopping, well we had some nice browsing time at Victoria's Secret and ended up buying way more than we actually needed. Then we were off to fight the battle of bathing suit shopping. This little adventure ended successfully but sucked the whole time. Olive Garden was a nice relaxing lunch, with some yummy food!

This week has been fun seeing Kelsey, we haven't been able to spend much time together since Junior High.

My Grandma Marsh

My great grandma Marsh died on February 15, 2011. It has been more than a month but she is still fresh on my mind and I miss her terribly. Grandma had been sick for years, I think she started showing Alzheimer symptoms shortly after the death of her son, my Uncle Phil. For the last of grandmas life on earth she was in a lot of pain, she was on bed rest and required additional help at home. This was hard for my great grandpa, he loved grandma more than anything and I worry about him everyday since her passing. Grandma was a huge part of my life. When my dad was in the legislature we lived with my great grandparents. I pretty much grew up with grandma there. I have found myself remembering silly things from my childhood. There are so many amazing memories, one particular thing that I remember is sticking a sticker on a light switch cover. Grandma loved that, it is still there and that was at least 17 years ago. It is crazy thinking about grandma not being a call away but I know she so much happier and she is no longer in pain. I think it is amazing that my grandma will know my children before I do. Grandmas funeral was a little different than usual. We have a serious shortage of men in my family so half of the Casket Bearers were Great Granddaughters. I had the honor of being part of this. It was a little unusual but I am sure that grandma wouldn't have it done any other way. Grandma was such a loving person and I am so thankful that I am her great granddaughter.

My Uncle Phil died on January 26th, 2004. This was 2 days before my 13th birthday. My uncle Phil was a huge part of my life. Everything I can remember about my Uncle Phil makes me smile. He was an amazing person. I r

emember playing in the backyard with him when I was young and he was holding onto my arms and spinning me around, my puppie Gussie heard me squealing and she thought he was hurting me and she bit his butt. It was so funny, especially to a young kid. We learned a very important lesson that day, although Gussie was a little mutt she was protective of me (her girl). Uncle Phil used to take my cousin Halley and I out for ice cream on Saturdays. He would pick us up in her convertible and put our carseats in the backseat of the red convertible and off we would go. I am sure it was an interesting site with us in the backseat, but it is one of my best memories. When Uncle Phil died I thought the world was going to end. I remember sitting by his headstone and bawling my eyes out. Uncle Phil was younger when he died. He was in this early 50's. He had a hard life, he had bipolar and he had cancer which eventually took his live. Watching him struggle with his bipolar was hard for me and since I was diagnosed I can relate and understand better his struggle. He was such a wonderful man and I think of him all of the time.

I have been blessed with an amazing family. I would never change them for anything, they are mine and no matter the craziness I love them.

dang... i am officially terrible at the game of blogging!

today as i sat in my comfy sweats attempting to start my online classes i was letting my mind wander, guess what it wandered to?! MY FORGOTTEN BLOG! well dearest blog you are no longer forgotten, i am back to you. I have been back in New Jersey since the 17th of December ( it was supposed to be the 16th but due to unfortunate flight cancellations in SLC my arrival date home was postponed). Within hours of my arrival home my family and I attended our ward Christmas party. It was sooo nice seeing everyone again!!!

Well this Christmas we journeyed to North Carolina to spend the holidays with my Uncle Mark and his kids.We divided the drive down to cover 2 days and we stayed in Baltimore, MD in a pretty nice hotel! We ate dinner at this amazing seafood joint called Mo's and it was absolutly

delicious. I even liked the oysters which i never like! yayyy!

Christmas in the Jensen household is always an adventure. With 3 parents and 8 kids (3 of these being over 18) the house tends to be a bit insane. It was lovely seeing my cousins and catching up with them. Christmas Eve all 5 of the Jensen cousins were at my beautiful Aunt Julies house, and my parents as well as my Uncle Mark were out doing their last minute Christmas shopping. I being the loving sister that I am went outside to play football with my siblings. Good intentions on my part but it was a stupid move. After about an hour of football the injury occurred... for those who know me well you all saw this coming. I threw the ball and the sister hit me from the side and then there it was the POP! that I was expecting. Now even i was surprised where the injury was, I was expecting one of my newly (both knees were operated on within 2 years the latest being 6 months ago) fixed knees, but nope... it was the back. yep. The very skilled in the department of injuring herself Lauren had successfully sprained her back. As I sit on the front lawn unable to move I called my dad notifying him that i would be patiently awaiting his arrival home to help me. About 10 minutes after I made this call my mom pulled up and unaware of what had happened asked me to help unload the car, I politely informed her that I really would love to but i couldn't move so it would not be happening. My dad pulled up just moments after with my Uncle Mark. After I was able to stand (kinda) the great debate started. hospital (dad) vs. no hospital/im fine (lauren). Long story short I lost and spent the evening at WakeMed. It was a lovely facility filled with even lovelier drugs to take away the pain. So after a painful evaluation and a less painful shot into the hip we were off to the pharmacy. Do you know how hard it is to find a Pharmacy that is open at 9 on Christmas Eve? to answer this question.... NEAR IMPOSSIBLE! We had to drive all the way to Raleigh which is about 30 minutes from my uncles house!

Christmas was amazing nonetheless. Being surrounded by people you love is the best! After sleeping for the next 2 days as a result of pain meds and muscle relaxers I was feeling better and ready to party!

I was able to have a lovely day with my Aunt Julie who I absolutely adore. After picking her car up we went out to lunch and a place whose name has temporary slipped my mind but they had fabulous hot sauces! I even bought one! yayyyy! after a nice tour through Raleigh we picked up my cousin Bailey and we were off to get mani/pedi's. It was amazing! i love being pampered! So after we were looking pretty hot with our freshly painted nails we were off to starbucks to get something to warm us up. Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate is amazing! After our detour to Starbucks we went to the mall! and i must say i am the proud new owner of my first lipstick! yayyyy!

The next day was the sad day we left NC. My dad was brilliant this year and decided to break the 14 hour drive into two days. The hotel we stayed out on the way home was called the GayLord National. IT WAS AMAZING! They had a fountain inside that they used in a show and then it snowed inside! It was super impressive!